More History!

If you know me at all I make a mean batch of chocolate chip cookies, there for I have a weight (or height, needing to be about 6'6"!) problem. Not that I can blame it on just that, I can cook pretty dang good and love all kinds of food. Seafood diet was what I have been on most of my life, if I see food I eat it! As a child I was always a little chubby (bigger boned, my mom would tell me!) and bigger then the other kids. They would call me fat Jack and I still remember the time that I was at a girls house and she offered me something that looked like candy because she knew that I would eat it and it turned out to be a soap puff. Then there was the time that my 6th grade teacher told me that "we both need to loss a little weight"! If that would have ever happened to one of my kids I would have killed someone, but that was the old days when they didn't worry about self esteem like they do now. I broke a chair once and remember mom telling Uncle John as he was fixing it, that if I did it again she was going to put me on a diet of lettuce and water. Nothing against Mom, I'm sure that she was just embarrassed to have to ask someone to help her do something. There is more but I won't bore you with the details. Somewhere along the way I became obsessed with food. Sad to say that was all I could think of. Kev and I got married when I weighting 165 and him 155, he has always weighted less then me. I remember going to a party after we got married and playing truth or dare and they dared us to exchange clothes, well I knew that there was no way I was going to fit into his clothes, pretty embarrassing! Anyway, after a year I had gained 40 pounds. Kev made a referance to a beached whale! So I joined a gym and did pretty good and then quite going and gained more wieght and got pregnant with Alicia weighting 215. Though I only gained about 25 pounds (you gain less when you are huge to begin with) I gained about 10 pounds before getting pregnant with Jess, and while she weighted in at 11 pounds, (Alicia at 9.3) I was up to 235 when I got pregnant with Lyd (9.6) giving birth at 265. I still remember that she came so fast and unexpected at the end that they screamed down the hall "get down here, we need help moving her to the gurney". One lady came by after I had Jess and kept looking in to my room, finally I asked her if I could help her and she said she just had to see me because Jess was soo big she wanted to see how big I was! I'm sure that I an just overly sensitive about anything that is said, but I wonder sometimes if people know what they say can be so hurtful! The topper was when my dad was on his death bed he said that he needed to talk to me and preceded to tell me that I was overweight and needed to get some help! (Of all the things that he could have told me?) Well in 1989 weighting in at almost 300 pounds I went in for a gastric bypass and lost 125 pounds. When they tell you that it is not a cure all, believe them! It wasn't. It was just so much fun to eat something and not have people stare at you because you shouldn't be eating it, that I eat myself right back up to 268! Over the last couple of years I have lost over 50 pounds and still work on it everyday! And yes I now weight less then Kev!!! It did help that he has put on some weight though! It is the biggest challenge of my life!! I will be having words with the big guy up stairs about how if someone is an alcoholic they don't have to drink and they won't be one or a drugy doesn't have to take drugs and he isn't a drugy. But us that are foodaholics still have to eat!!!!! I feel very strongly about this subject, but will save that for another day!
Well this suppose to be a journal of sorts, so I will tell you about yesterday. My usual is getting up scriptures, prayers, getting ready and then breakfast. Then eat while I "work" on the computer. I have to read the blogs, check my e-mails, check and download the bank activities for the day before and then work with pictures or whatever else there is to do. So after that yesterday I called Jess and Alicia and said that I would bring my bike over and we hooked Chloe's new half bike to the back of mine. (It is a little bike that hooks on to an adult one, that has handle bars and one wheel and peddles so they can help pump.) Alicia was on the single bike for about 1/2 mile and then she got on mine with Chloe behind. Jess had Indie and Maddie in the cart behind hers. We rode over to Walmart and Alicia and the girls had lunch while Jess and I got some stuff, cuz we had already ate and then we rode to Aunt Sally's house for a visit. Then home to each of our houses to meet at Cherry Hill (swimming park that we gave the kids passes to for Christmas) for a swim. At the last minute I asked Alicia if we could take the kids and she could sleep because she and LKev were up till 2:30 the night before painting. (We had left at 11:00 we are too old for that 2:30 stuff) So we meet Jess and co. there and swam for awhile then stopped by Joan's to give her a BD present, she wasn't home, so I left it with Ashley. Then home and then to Alicia's to paint. We only made it till about 9:00, but it is coming along. Well that was about it. I'm glad that I'm doing this, I haven't told anyone yet, I just like the fact that now I will be able to look back and remember what I have done! Jack out